Wednesday, November 22, 2006

When did this happen?

This is a strange blog for me, but it is early in the morning and I have been waxing philosophical.

Do you ever just stop where you are, take a good look at yourself and wonder, "Who IS this person that I have turned out to be?" I feel like I go through an identity shift every 5 years, but since becoming a mother, my role in this world is COMPLETELY different! I think of who I was 10, 15 years ago and sometimes don't even recognize who that person was, let alone who I have become!? So, when do we finally feel comfortable with who we are? In another 10 years, will my outlook on life and love be compeltely different than it is now? Is this just called GROWING UP? Hmmm. Maybe it is widsom. Who knows. Right when I think I have it all figured out, life gets all crazy and changes on me.

There are times when I look at my life and think it couldn't be any crazier. But then, I realize that actually, my life is so tame, sometimes even predictable. But I wouldn't have it any other way. I like tame. I like centered. I like simple. I like sane. I like healthy, and happy, and fulfilled. I especially like being loved by Kurt, with an intensity that I could never explain to anyone else. And I love that my children look at me and truly believe that I am EVERYTHING.

*sigh*

I think I will just keep my hum-drum mommy life. :)

1 comment:

Amylouwho said...

I hear you.

I've had these thoughts many times, but am ultimately glad for the good and bad that have brought me to where and who I am today. I'm glad you are too!

Although - I still see the same fun girl from 15 years ago, with more wisdom, of COURSE!